God talk to you . .

Sometimes . . We can feel that Allah is talking to us . He test us , He give us with something . When He test us , we need to face the test , cause know what ? He give you the strongness ! When He give you richness , dont be greed , dont be ungrateful , dont be arrogant . . He give you wellness so you can make good to others . . Actually . . Im a lil bit depressed this month . . Ma life change so drastic ! I need to face ma life in the hostel alone . . I thought I can do it all . . But seriously I cant . . Not just that , in class . . Everything is changing ! My best buddy Mozsenna also stop his study because of a job call . . I totally feel Im all alone . My habit changed , everything is changed ! I'll text my besties everyday . . I cried everyday when I thinking the moments of us . . :'( I lost my appetite . . I cant sleep early . . I afraid of losing anything that belong to me . . I text my boyfriend everyday , thanks to him . . He the one who accompany me a lots , without bored melayan my perangai . . Even sometimes I making lots of trouble . Even he just make a joke I can be so sensitive til I took that joke seriously . . I started to afraid to lose him , ma family . . Im just too thinking of it til my old health problems come back . My sugar level in blood increase rapidly , the fat ( cholestrol ) start to cover my heart thats why I have breathing problems . . The most Im afraid is Im stress til I was confirm having severe depression . . My weight drop drasticly from 41kg til 34kg only . . My chest pain started to attack . . I take this as a test from the Lord . . Maybe He want me to remember Him , and I know . . There always a good things come afterward :) Syukran Ya Allah . . To my sayang , thanks for always be with me , for draw a smile upon ma lips , for the laugh that you create . I love you with all ma heart . . Ma bestie Elsie , thanks for being a good friend and thanks a lots for the advice gal . . You know how much I appreciate it .. Mom and dad , thanks a lots for support me in economic to buy the medicine . I never meant to trouble both of you . I never meant to steal your work time :'( Maybe Im big enough to get your attention right ?? But its ok , I dont mind . . :'(